You guys !!!!
Chips!!!
I went to an event last week with chips and wine and treats!!! And you know whats incredible ? Is that I did not stuff my face with them NOR did I WANT TO! What???
If you told me 2 years ago I would get to this point I would not believe you.
I used to eat everything, all the time.
If was was at a birthday party, dinner party or kids birthday party I would just go for it.
I think I did that my whole life to make myself feel more secure, more confident, more at peace with myself and how inadequate I felt.
I had no idea I was doing it back then, I just felt like being at an ‘event’ gave me full permission to eat whatever I want and however much I want!
And I did.
And my tummy would hurt!
And then I would do it all over again.
I just thought that I deserve a treat, whats the big deal, its just one bite, it tastes so good, everyone else is eating it, etc, etc.
I used to wonder what other people think when they don’t want to eat this cake or chips or have the extra chocolate.
“How is it possible?”
I kept wondering about them and wishing it was impossible for me to get to a point where I don’t want a peanut butter and jam sandwich before bed.
Well let me tell you that if it’s possible for me to be in front of the chips and NOT WANT TO STUFF my face with them then it is for sure possible for you.
I was on autopilot, I was not thinking about whether I was hungry, full or whether it serves me or not.
The only thought process I remember now is what I was thinking afterwards:
‘why did I overeat’
‘I wish I didn’t’
‘I hate my stomach sticking out that way’ and ‘I wish I could eat more not to feel all this horrible guilt and hate’.
So if you are eating on autopilot and you have a lot of weight to lose or only a few pounds, it doesn’t matter because you can definitely get to place where I am now, be at peace with myself and not crave the chips that are in front of me.
p.s. I am still human and I do occasionally relapse into thinking I want food but those moments are so rare and I know exactly what to do when that happens; i know how to take care of myself in those moments when I need some comfort food.
